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[Zgirl]

Okay you guys since I don't want to be imagined as a penguin what should I change my avie to?

[Agent M]

No!! Don't change it!!!!! Penguins are cool!!!!!


I think Poot is picking on me today........

[Aurora]

Life still sucks.

Well, Yeah.... everyone calls me Aurie at this site...

I'd say more about the vaguely self-destructiveness, but y'know... two things. I'm not going to because... It'd just be a stupid thing to do, and secondly, I've been warned against being depressed/suicidal etc on this site. Last year. So I sort of make an effort to be non-depressing. Look at my site sometime- www.xanga.com/aurika... you'll get a better indication of how I'm feeling these days.

Sometimes I feel like there are two of me. ...one comes from before high school, before grade nine. She's mostly dead. Then there's the person I am now. The two are closer together when I'm happier, which isn't now. When I'm at my extreme of the now-personality, I wonder if I even feel anything anymore. When I'm at that side, I feel emotionless. Nothing affects me anymore, its me but its not me... because in that state, I doubt I would hesitate to hospitalize someone or something. In that state... I'm almost completely ruthless, cynical, and... emotionless.

[Zgirl]

Aurora have you ever thought of writing songs, poems, or a novel? That was really deep! Wow.
Not to butt in but what ever happened to your signature "kisses taste nice"? Anyways I seriously think you should keep a journal. That was really deep.

[Gryphon]

People don't realize sometimes that I'm not always the hyper and cheery Gryphon that I act here or other places. It's really easy to be blind, but to look deeper, people just don't see that in me. I used to be like you are Aurie, writhing inside my own skin, yet at the same time, senseless and uncaring. So much pain the world holds...

But I guess I'm passed that. For me, it was breif, I guess.

I look out the back window and I hear cars rushing by, car after car after car, never ceasing to pause. I used to hate it for what it was, revolting and poluting and everything else cars and traffic stand for. And the people driving, so blind, so dull. Now it's different. I embrace the world because, though a lot of the drivers are rude and ignorant buttheads (I won't use worse words), life is still beautiful in its own way. Same for the cars, despite the destruction that's been caused for/by them. People strive to make the world a better place, and in some ways they do. Hate the cities and pollution if you must, but try to look beyond it.

Keep a journal? Take pride in your self torture?

[Agent M]

Wow Gryph. Deepness.

*curses Poot* Though I shouldn't blame it on Poot all the time.... and this time there isn't anything to say, everything is too deep right now to ruin the moment.

[Aurora]

I've kept a journal for years- I started in the year 2000. I tend not to go into detail in it though...

Gryph, you realize I absolutely abhor it when people start lecturing me on the beauty of the world. Pride in self-torture? I won't call it pride, but I won't call it remorse either. Frankly, I could care less either way.

I once wrote a story because I needed to get out emotion. It was really badly written, but it's up on Fictionpress. Somewhere. It was very badly written, except for the suicide note part. I wrote it because I was feeling incredibly suicidal at the time, and yeah... the original written copy had tear drops on it. Tears of anger and misery... all in one.

Deep? I never considered myself deep.

Does anyone here but me express themselves better in written form than in spoken language?

[drea]

I have a severe issues with keeping journals. I just opened a new Blog, because I realized that now that I'm a grownup, I've run out of friends, and I work too much, I have no one and nothing to vent to. Thus the blog keeps me at least comfortable without blowing up.

[Agent M]

Ugh. I hate journals. They don't work. For me at least. I think any of my anger I can easily vent on my stuffed animals or the made up critisms and arguments in my head. I have a journal, but I'm using that for my story.....

[Gryphon]

I only just started a journal in a notebook because I desperately felt like writing something. I don't go through much, and I've promised myself one page per day at the max. Any more and my notebook would probably be full by now. So far I've used a full page every day. I either feel like writing or drawing, and right now, it's drawing.

Aurie, I'm definitly NOT lecturing you. People always have different view at different moments and there is NO right one.

I see journals as imprisoning memories. I rarely write with emotion in my journal. To me, it feels like holding on to pain.

[Rowen Avalon]

Originally posted by Birdhead:
ROWEN!!! My goodness. Yes of course I remember you! I used to argue with you about politics. Nice to see you around.

De-lurkifying again: Ah yes. We had a loverly arguement, er, discussion about why people in America know nothing about New Zealand.

Hah, I could tell you the on-topic threads I get sick of: The Kit/Nita one and the Ponch one. The Ponch one tends to appear every time a new book comes out. Again, I really don't mind the topics themselves.

So that would be pointless speculation threads? What do we like, the LOONy threads? (That's League Of Obsessive Nitpickers to anyone not on HPFGU, which everyone should be.)

[calliope]

I have a ton of marble notebooks lying around in my room. They're not really journals, just places where I write random poetry, sketch, and just...well, write

[Gryphon]

Calliope, *huggles*. I had to move away from all the friends I ever knew, even my best friend (who I lost all contact with). The first year was terrible. I hated my school, I hated the people. I didn't get any really good friends until a bit later. Heh. It's more like they found me.

Your avatar! Haha...

[Agent M]

Moving is no fun. I haven't really moved, just from a couple houses. And I don't miss those houses... *shudder* But I know people who did move and I really hope there are people at your school that like you!! Cause we all know your cool! There was a new girl this year and my bf was the one who had to show her around on the first day, now me, her, and 3 other girls from school are best friends!

[EWizard11]

And if anyone goes to a gift store and sees one of those things where they imprint your name onto it if you see a Meg will you tell me? I've never seen one. Ever. Ugh.

Try finding one named Diego.

Try finding one that says Ella!! And M, I'm surprised. It seems like Meg would be easier to find. Is your full name Margaret? I have a cousin named Meg.

I'm glad I make friends easily...I don't know what I would do if I hadn't (I moved). I'm social. Most people think of social as meaning that you're popular. I'm not. I'm friendly and I talk to people. Right now I have a group of four close friends here. But one of them is leaving my school (the tuition got to high. I hate the &$*!% tuition!!!) and another is moving to Georgia! And I've only known these people for a year! It's not fair...why do things have to end?!